Deathstarr

I have ecently learned that my blog can be a very useful tool while making money on it also. I have also learned that some of you have been reading my blogs. Well here a short simple sweet catch-up on life.

Me and ashley are over. Went to hell and back then back to hell. She is going out with an older guy them me (im 19) she wis 16. Get the picture? I started off by building a new website. Sold that. Bought IPB and am getting ready to job hunt tomorrow and get shit straight. I also am selling a few domains.
GameDeveloperzone.com

IFSkinShop.com

NickDNS.net

NeclearPCs.com

I was selling this domains but figured I could use it more then anyone would.

Deathstarr

If anyone has been reading my blog in the past months you know that I have had allot going on with my aunt jane, to no job, me and my girl are great but I think I am with annoying her and I feel like she is getting tired of me. I dont know what to do about it,I love her so much. I know I need to give her space I just dont know what or how to do about everything. Give me some advice to something to do. I want my baby back.

Her and a Friend* started this girls night out every week end, and I don’t have a problem with the concept but the friend* has some bad ways, her friend* is not a cheater but comes real close sometimes and I thats the problem I have with it, Itrust Ash** with all my heart, but Ash** is too good of a friend to say no to someone. I don’t trust the friend* I love Ashley.

* Uses people

**Ashley Lynn Bowers My Baby

Long time again, I kinda hate to post sometimes. Not to be bothered with it. But anyways.

Nothing has really changed since I last posted cept I got another car, Me and Ash are still going stonger everday, I still dont have a job but me and a friend of mine are working on it. He is tring to get me on at his job. But we may be going to Louisiana and that would suck but be nice anyways, cause the extra money. We ae working out in the yard and its hard cause there is allot of brush and shit, I have blisters on my hands but we are getting it. Today I am going swiming and just chilling for a while.

Well Peace and Love.

Deathstarr

I have my ca now and its looking and running good, I replaced the transmission myself so that didnt cost me a few dollars. I am still going out with AShley My angel and love her. She got me a radio for my car now I have to install it. YAYm still no job. My Aunt moved in with us, which has been one of our worst decision of our lives. But its ok. She helps out with money when she can. I have not wrote on this for a while because I am just tired of using it but I want to keep it like a journal when I find it again I like to go over things I have forgotton. I wok at Mokata.net now so be sure to check that out.

I dont have a Job yet, I failed a test so I didnt get a job. I dont have my car yet. But my cell phone is messing up also. Other then that we are struggling with money but it will be ok.

Thats about it.

I am dating ashley and I love her to death. She has a Job at Waffle House which calls for allot of her time..So I see her when I can. I miss her when she is gone. But I am really not on the net that much.

peace…

You know when you meet someone and you want to date them but You cant because they don’t look at you the same way. It can hurt but sometimes is better if they don’t like you the same way. This is what happened to me when I wanted to date a girl from around here. I was sad but New Years I cheered up when I was invited to go out with a couple of girls. Girl 1 & Girl 2. I had met girl 1 before but girl 2 was a new one. I wanted to go out with girl 1 because me and her have been talking on Myspace and I had suggested that we go out sometime, I didn’t know it would be so soon. But anyways I had fun and Me and Girl 1 hit it off now I am going out with her and I think its perfect love. I love her to death.

Everyone get what they wanted? No, You wanted something bigger oh well get over it. I didn’t get everything I wanted but hey I got somethings of what I wanted. I got cloths, and I talked to the girl I like and shes sick, she and I haven’t been talking allot in the past couple of days but I think she is just sick. She couldn’t spend time with her family yesterday because she was sick and running a fever. I want to see her and I miss her, I miss hearing her voice and holding her in my arms. Looking into her eyes. Maybe soon I can see her again, maybe soon she will call me. Well I hope everyones Christmas went good.

Happy Holidays

Well,well,well It seems like allot has gone on through the past week, lets see where to start. I for one payed alil on my new car, and payed my bills I have, I can’t buy christmas for anyone because I am broke but they will understand because I never have money at christmas time. I for one though really feel bad when I get a gift and can’t give one back. But We will see what happens.

The second thing is:…….Me and Karen are totally over never to be back together and I think both of us are better off then when we was together. Shes good and everything but shes alil clingy and we spent alot of time on the phone and talking and I got burned out on her. But she was a great girlfriend and I will never forget her but I guess the rode for me and her have ended. I am talking to this other girl now and shes very nice, I really enjoy talking to her and always have so I am thinking good about this relationship plus she’s alittle older then Karen and I think thats a plus, shes more open and mature for the matter also. But Life is good for the moment. Remember its christmas time.

I am also working on a project thats very very interesting and I enjoy doing it so ya Maybe if I can fully develop it, I could make some money but I am not sure which way it will go. well I will write more about it later.

If You send me a e-mail or message of your website I will be sure to let you know what it is faster.

Have you ever lost something and you wanted it back but you could not seem to get it back, today is that day I lost something of mine. I was undecided on what to do and when I came to a conclusion it seems good at the time but When You sit back and thing about some things You can really start to miss it. Then when she tells you that she will be flirting with other guys You see it in your head and it starts to really hurt like ecoli eating away at your flesh and you can not move you want to screen out but cannot You mouth is covered and You are in tear of sadness. Well I had that today when I told my girlfriend that I wanted to be friends.

Sometimes Life can be hard and You need the hard trials to get through the easy ones; I understand this concept very well now days and although she does act more immature then I understand at times You cant help to love her still, I will miss her but she declared to me that we will never be together because she is not waiting. I guess I have messed up, I didn

I have had a long life since I have last blogged, Really I am so confused about me and my girlfriend I do not know what to say, I just living for the moment, I do not have my car, christmas is right around the corner and I do not know what to do.

My Stepdad came off the road as a Semi-Driver and took my car so he could get back and forth to work so for christmas I get another car I am getting a 1994 Mazda MX6, its a sporty little car with a v6 and I cant wait but I do have to do some repairs to it before I will be able to drive it like Get the transmission going right. But I think It will be ok lol.

I still do not have a job; I have applied to mutiple places where I would like to work but meh, school exams comes next week so that will be fun, I cant wait til the weekend when I can sleep in I am so tired.

But My girlfriend me and her was fighting allot and we have broken up 3-4 times in the past week and I gave her one more chance because she really wants to be with me but I dont know how I feel about her if I dont love her I do not want to be with her wasteing her time but I am not sure what to do. Its just a situation I would rather not be in and look here I am sitting in the bullseye of this mess.

SOMEONE Comment MY BLOG and give me some advice.